25 more random things...

1. I am addicted to McDonalds Coke.
2. Flipflops are my fav accessory.
3. Farmtown addict
4. So extremely excited to start remodeling my kitchen!!!!!
5. I have the most awesome friends ever.
6. I have a husband that adores me and all my silliness.. well, most days :)
7. My cat snores.... loud.
8. I chewed thru a night time mouth piece in two nights.. I grind my teeth just a little.
9. Really? Airlines charge for bathroom usage on plane??
10. So if I don't have any change, would they rather clean the pee off my seat?
11. I am easily sidetracked.
12. I can make one hell of a casserole with random things in my cupboards.
13. I could never take too many photographs.
14. I wish I was as carefree and happy as my 3 year old.
15. I cried when I looked thru photos of the boys when they were babies.
16. Recently came in touch with new family that couldnt be more exciting to me.
17. I sleep with my feet hanging out of the covers... oh, and don't even try to jump in bed with me with socks on.
18. One of my least favorite qualities about myself is the inability to forgive and forget.
19. I want to taste a yellow watermelon.. yes, they have them.
20. When I get mad, I clean house.
21. I'm just starting to read Twilight.
22. I actually found a brand of cotton balls that doesn't get me chills... well, as bad anyway.
23. Powdered milk?? eww... I said easily sidetracked.
24. I miss the 80's.. side pony's and all
25. I sing or rhyme almost everything in my head... like after the 80's comment.. I sang "i love rock n roll, put another dime in the jukebox baby, i love rock n roll...."
26. I'm psychic because I know you are now singing "i love rock n roll...." lol
27. I kick @ss playing that song on Guitar Hero.
28. I text my husbands best friend more than my husband texts him.
29. Funhater was totally MY word before everyone stole it :)
30. One tequila, two tequila, three tequila, four... that's my weakness.... I won't hit the floor.. maybe tequila makes her clothes come off is more my song. lol.
31. See, I totally got sidetracked.. this is a 25 random things and I went to 31. I know, I'm crazy, spacey, what ever you wanna call it- but my friends and family LOVE ME :) Cause I'm AWESOME. lol

A Daddy's Love... a Mama's Pride... & Friends Forever

My heart is scared...

My friend Tonya's recent successful search for long lost family inspired me to start my own search.
I don't think I had any idea what I was getting myself into. My life is great as it is. My mom and I have grown closer over the years and the only man that has ever been a father figure to me, Kraige is an awesome Grandpa to my boys. I've told myself many many times that if my biological father wanted me in his life then he would have looked for me. That it's his loss for not knowing me and my family. I secretly hoped it would weigh heavy on his heart if he knew about us.
As I write this, my heart is fluttering with anticipation. I found my biological dad's two kids on Facebook- gotta love Facebook! After they so kindly accepted me as a friend, I've browsed their pages to see the description of their lives. As much as I think it's awesome that they are a very close brother and sister, I've got this overwhelming feeling of jealousy. They speak of this wonderful dad and grandfather they have and my heart breaks. I don't understand why I never knew that wonderful dad. I question why my boys don't know that awesome grandpa. I question why my Mom felt it was "best" that I didn't know why my dad was until I was older. I question why my "dad" never felt it necessary to search for this daughter he had. Or, did he search and my mom keep him away? I feel this huge hole in my heart now for the life I could have known, for the people that could have been a huge part of my life, for all the love I've missed out on. As I looked thru the photos of the family, I see so much of myself in them. The pictures of the new grandbaby strongly resembles my little Zane when he was a baby.
How does one take all of this in? What will happen if they don't accept me? If they don't want to get to know me? I don't think I know what I've got myself into.
My heart is scared. I'm scared of rejection. I'm scared of heartbreak.

Quote for the day

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

Wordless Wednesday

Tutu Gurlzzzzz

Tuesday night.. girls night. Woot Woot! We had fun. Crazy, silly, be ourselves fun. Every woman needs friends like mine :) Yeah, we're crazy.... with or without alcohol. Say hello to the Tutu Gurlzzzz.....I've not laughed this hard in... oh, probly a week. haha.hehe. Have a great day.

Ten things about...

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people (don’t list names):
1. I'm happy for you
2. I wish you'd walk with me :)
3. I wish you would write me back.
4. I'm glad we don't talk anymore because you arent who I thought you were.
5. Why am I not important enough for you to search for me?
6. I'm sorry.
7. Why did you do that to me?
8. What was it like?
9. You're not what he makes you think you are.
10. You were right.

Nine things about yourself:
1. Cotton gives me goosebumps.
2. I wish my eyes were green.
3. I have the craziest dreams.
4. I love my kids more than anything in this world.
5. I love flip flops.
6. I'm enjoying my thirties.
7. I have a scar on my right arm from my grandmas camper.
8. I fell in a lagoon once trying to catch a frog that was just... outta..my..reach.
9. I love being with my friends and family.

Eight ways to win your heart:
1. Scratch my head.
2. Big strong hug.
3. Love me.
4. Kiss my forehead.
5. Look me in the eyes.
6. Random notes... on mirrors.. in lipstick :)
7. Let me rest my head on your heart.
8. Watch my while I sleep.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
1. I need a vacation.
2. My boys.
3. Did I pay that bill?
4. McD's coke.
5. Really? More laundry?
6. I really need a pedicure.
7. I'm ready to paint.

Six things you wish you never had to do:
1. Laundry
2. Stress
3. Go to dentist
4. work- other than my photography
5. pay bills
6. See my kids hurt or cry.

Five turn offs:
1. Bad breath
2. Boogies
3. Ignorance
4. Bad smell
5. Unhappyness

Four turn ons:
1. Looks me in the eyes.
2. Scratch my head, play with my hair
3. Very Sexy cologne for men
4. Tan-summer-working man with blue eyes

Three wishes for your future:
1. Health to see my grandkids
2. Home in the country
3. To be known for my photography

Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Skydive
2. Drive a racecar

One possession you could not live without:
1. My camera

My biscuits are burning!!!

Bath time is great around the house. It's nice to let the boys sit in the tub and play. They always have such a good time. If they are not getting along playing with toys, they will always get along in the tub. Plus gives them time to soak their stinky butts, right?? Haha. Anyway, as always, I run the water cool until they get in and then I turn up the heat a bit so they don't turn into icicles. Their version of warm and my version are complete opposite. Anyway, I had turned up the warm up just a bit and a few minutes later Colby says "Mom"... as he has his hands holding his "stuff".. "Mom, my biscuits are burning, you gotta turn the cold back on!" Hmmm. I had to refrain myself from laughing because we all know if it makes someone laugh they will do it over and over and over and that's just what I need is a boy telling everyone in the grocery store that his mom burnt his biscuits! lol.
So shower safe and be sure not to burn your biscuits!!!