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Woot Woot Friday!

Well, another week passed by... it's been a bit crazy, but that's my life. Colby was pukey sick all week. Only went to school on Tuesday and Friday! Poor guy. Zane is happy go lucky Zane. A good week for him. Justin proposed.. again.. to me last night :) What a sweetheart he is. I think he really does love me! And, I, started a temp. part time position with one of my bestest friends every- Tonya! Yeah, the job is boring.. but instead of texting her all day, I can just walk into the other room and talk to her :) Today, I've got Dallas- Tonya's son- and I'm listening to him and Zane play... firetrucks or something. I hear fire truck sirens in the background? Ok, so Dallas just went by with the firetruck and cowboy guns in holsters attached to his belt... lol. Kids are so funny.
So, like I said, busy busy! Don't get the wrong idea tho, I am still doing photography full time. Just filling time while the business is slower. We have a birthday party and one year old portrait sessions tomorrow, so check out the website for new photos!

Wordless Wednesday

An afternoon at the park

What a beautiful afternoon! Here's some pics from our trip to the park.

Random Needs vs. Wants

I need...

to desperately wash this gray right outta my hair!

to get the rest of this stuff for sale on ebay and outta my house!

to finish up some acctg. work for the fire dept.

to call an old friend.

to have dinner with another friend.

to go visit another.

a drinky drink with the girls.

to dust.

a hubby hug.

a mooch from Zane.

a non shedding, puking cat.

I want...

a tan.

a mani/pedi.

a massage.

a vacation.

a clothing makeover.

mmmm.... some girl scout cookies.

more money for all of the above.

some 70 degree weather.

to go camping.

to go to the lake.

Hey Baby...

My Justin and I celebrated our wedding anniversary this weekend with dinner and some much deserved alone, quiet time. After our dinner out, we came home... he in his recliner, me on the floor.. started a movie and I think we were both asleep before the previews ended.. which was around 9 p.m. Happy Anniversary :) It was nice to have some quiet time where he and I could actually have a conversation. Don't get me wrong, I love love the stories that my little ones make up after hearing about our days, but again just nice for some adult convo!
So, anyway, back to the anniversary weekend... of course we sent the boys to my mom's to get some grandma/grandpa time. Before I go on, her keeping them is much appreciated. She does love them with all she has and that is awesome. It's just funny the stuff that the boys come home doing. She's just a crazy grandma. She's the complete opposite of the mom I knew growing up. They get to eat candy, and drink soda, and stay up late, and the list goes on..... I just have to shake my head in wonder?? I know someday I will be a grandma too and will probably be exactly like her. lol. I'm rambling, I know.. so, my littlest sweetest baby in the world.. who will be 3 on Saturday :(... comes home saying.. "Hey Baby, Hows your day?" I was like.. hey who?? Everything is now "Hey Baby"... "Here's your phone, Baby"...... "Whats up Baby?".... "I love you Baby" and not baby baby.. like deep voice baybah. Again, shaking my head in wonder... with a smile.

Ahhh... Monday

Today I was supposed to start a temporary part time position working with my friend Tonya. I'm excited to work with her as we get along great and we get to car pool and we get off at 330.. the list goes on. So anyway, my oldest wakes up with an upset stomach! What a way to venture back into the working world! haha. So, yes... it's a Monday
I had to call in on my first day.
The damn cat puked on the carpet.
I had no potatoes, so we had to eat french fries with roast.. somehow that just doesn't seem right to me.
I'm still a bit @#$$%#$^%^%* from yesterdays events... T knows...
It's 1230 on Tuesday and I'm not tired.
I asked my husband to bring me a coke from Casey's... he forgot!
I was tickling my 3 year old and loving his giggle.. then started thinking of the day he will have a big man laugh.

Seven

Today my husband and I celebrate 7 years of marriage. It's crazy to think that it's already been 7 years. Tho he drives me to drink some days, I couldn't ask for a better man. I never believed in destiny much until we met each other. I had a friend Kindra, who was married to Justin's friend Kevin and yet, Justin and I never met or knew each other. We were at the same concerts and bars and Stillwater Calf Fry's and rodeos and weddings.... and yet never once met. When he finally asked me out, it was love at first sight. I knew he was the one that I would spend the rest of my life with. He is everything I am not and that makes us perfect together. Our first date was October 3rd, I was pregnant by the end of December and married on February 21st. It was a crazy first year for us, but we made it. Colby was born Sept. 6th that year.

I am a firm believer that everything in life happens for a reason. We learn from our mistakes. My past helps me appreciate Justin for all that he is to me and our boys. Heartbreak, disappointment.. it makes us stronger.

I wouldnt take anything back for a second.

Happy Anniversary!

Wordless Wednesday

so, i have this friend...

~ Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquaintance. ~
Rabindranath Tagore

and she loves me for who i am... not what i have or what i do.. this is the friend i will keep in my heart forever. she knows. and i thank her and love her for all she has shown me in the last few months.... she is the friend that will be in my life when we are 80.getting drunk.camping somewhere.gettin a tan.still looking good.all while i'm giggling the entire time :)

love ya.

I sowwy mama

My dear boys.. Colby and Zane. Why is it that being a mother some days is completely heartbreaking. Colby is 6, going on 15 and Zane is almost 3 and going on whatever Colby is. They whine, bicker, pester, aggravate, poke, pick, slap... etc. etc. Just to get each other all huffy and mama to yell. I think they like me to yell somedays. I really wish they didn't because it makes me feel like a bad mom and I know I am not. They have always been the best behaved boys, but the last 6 months or so it seems that the little shits, yes- I said little shits, have a mission to drive me crazier than I already am. I actually made little Zane put his nose in the corner the other day because I didn't know what else to do. In one ear and out the other.. then he looks at you with the sweetest little eyes and puffed out lip 'I sowwy mama' Yeah, sure, how do you not just pick him up and say 'ok, honey, just don't do it again' Ugh. Then there's Colby. He's got the Kindergarten attitude. I've always told him that he gets all his goodness out when he's at school. Doesn't have any left for home. I swear it's true too. So, after this weekend of continuous bickering, whining, pestering. etc.etc. we have officially grounded Colby for the first time from his 4-wheeler. Now, if you have a little farm boy yourself, then you know just exactly how traumatizing being grounded from your 4-wheeler can be. There were tears... tried really hard to hide them, but yes they were there. On top of that, I have found this behavior form online.. it's a picture of a truck and for every good day of behavior they get to put a sticker in the truck. The brother that fills the truck up first gets a prize. Not yet decided what prize... guess we will see when someone fills that truck... haha. Let's hope it doesn't take that long! So, after this crazy stressful weekend, I became that mom... with the charts. Ugh. But, whatever works is my goal for now.
So, good news, this morning.. Colby got out of bed. Dressed. Shoes. Brushed teeth. I didn't have to raise my voice once. He was early, came and cuddled on the couch with me before it was time to go. Picked up his clothes and turned off lights without being told. WHY WHY WHY did we have to ground and create charts to get him to cooperate??? Zane woke up perky as always. Has been a little angel all day.
We'll see how well the behavior chart works.... I cross my fingers. I know they are good boys, it's just getting that goodness to come out at home!

Random

1. I'm hate germs.
2. I believe in love at first sight.
3. I have the cutest kids in the world!
4. I wish I could see you just one more day.
5. My husband is the best person I've ever known. He made me believe in people again, always helps me see the lighter side of everything and taught me forgiveness. He helps me be a better person.
6. I HATE cotton.. it give me chills from my head to my toes!
7. It took me 31 years to find my "thing" in life. To finally figure out that I am very good at something, and have the confidence to know it.
8. I enjoy being 30 because I am finally happy with who I am.
9. I believe everyone has a soulmate.
10. I don't spend enough time with friends that live in other towns and there is no excuse for it.
11. I have a thing for older men with gray hair and blue eyes.
12. I once dated a man that was 20 years older than me.
13. I can't roll my r's in Spanish.
14. Nothing is more relaxing to me than driving fast with the sunroof open, windows down and loud rock n roll playing on the radio! (80's hairbands are my fav)
15. I hope that my boys find someone to spend their life with that loves them as much as their dad and I love each other.
16. Somedays I love being a stay at home mom/photographer, somedays I enjoy putting my kids to bed at 7.
17. I hate laundry.
18. I love cleaning other peoples houses.
19. I just got my nose pierced... I'm going to be 32 this year. But, I love it.
20. I look forward to a girls night every week!!
21. I wish my mom and Kraige lived closer so the boys could see them more often.
22. I'm happy for my little sister being who she is at such a young age.
23. I wish I could go back and thank all the people that helped me when I needed it the most.
24. As much as I hate to admit it, I am just like my mother.
25. I am not perfect and I love that about me.

A little intro... my crazy simple life

I've been thinking about blogging for awhile now... I guess tonites the night. As I sit here at the computer, the house is so quiet. I really enjoy my late nights to myself. Kids are sound asleep, hubby too.. and here I sit typing a blog. My schedule is a bit off lately. Stay up late, then up early to get kids around.. take a nap once in awhile just to catch up. Some days I think I've really lost it.. quitting a great salary job to stay at home with my boys and work on my photography business in times like this. But, how does one decide what is more important in life... I had to.

In this moment, I could not be happier. It's giving me a chance to remember myself and who I was before I became that busy mother and wife. I really didn't know which end was up or down. I had lost myself somewhere along the way. It was definitely not where I wanted to be or even where I thought I would be at 31. How does one decide what is more important in life.. family or money. I saw myself becoming that mom that misses all the ball games and field trips and class parties because of some big important job she has. I just couldn't do it anymore. For me, family is all you have. We could make it without the unnecessary purchases in exchange for more mommy time. So, with the support of my dear husband and wonderful friends, I took a huge step and left my job. I am now a full time wife, mother and photographer.